Chapter Three: The Purpose of All There Is

 

A number of years has went by since the last chapter, I am now in my late twenties.

 

It was late at night, around 3am, I spend so much time programming inside a local coffee shop that it just flew by.

 

I was walking home because the bus are not operating at this hour, it was a comfortable night, there is an air of peace and blissfulness around me as I went on my journey home.

 

I was feeling rather mellow as I remembered...I was so tired programming that I just don't want to think about anything anymore.

 

And just then, I heard the foot steps again, yes, those same foot steps that I remembered, the air around me felt rather different again...yes...the presence, I understand what is happening...

 

Omega is here.

 

Omega: "How have you been Mr. Bracer ?"

 

Me: "Arh...you...well...ok I guess..."

 

Omega: "I see that you are still...normal...what happened ?"

 

Me: "What do you mean normal ?"

 

Omega: "Well, how did the meeting went since I last introduced you to Money ?"

 

Me: "Well, you know there is only so much of these craziness I can take..."

 

Omega: "Craziness ? You didn't even try...what is the point of being able to talk to me if you never take any of the things I say seriously ?"

 

Me: "I was 15...I didn't realize what I was asking for ! I didn't ask for Madness you know !?!"

 

Omega: "A lot of people would kill to have what you are experiencing right now you know, or at the very least climb some mountains or some other crazy extravagant crap."

 

Me: "You are not going to go away aren’t you ?"

 

Omega: "The covenant has been made when you are 15 Bracer, believe me, you need me more than I need you."

 

Me: "Alright, I am too tired to fight anyway, and to be honest, I could use the company, it is going to be some time before I am home anyway...huh, it kinda feels good to be able to have a nice walk with you in a clear quiet path where I don't have to worry about people noticing that I am talking to air."

 

Omega: "Technically, air is me too Bracer :-) I am always here...I am everywhere, there is no place you can go where I am not already there."

 

Me: "Omega...If you are who I think you might be, why this...why all these ?"

I said this while gesturing my hand around trying to ask him why are all things created, the purpose of life itself.

 

Omega: "Wow, that is a loaded question for someone as tired as you at this point to ask, you sure you want to hear it ?"

 

Me: "Well keep it short then, in any case, since you are just a figment of my imagination, your extrapolation is as good as any."

 

Omega: "Figment of your imagination huh :-) Well, so I shall be then :-) If it makes you feel more at ease and accepting of my presence in your life :-)"

 

I smiled back at him.

 

"To answer your question" says Omega, "I first want you to know that I can only best explain it through your current level of knowledge and or level of ignorance, as you grew in time I will explain more, and in the future, when you do find out more, some information might seem contradictory, but I assure you, if you have the luxury to hear everything in time, all will be as clear to you as you would allow yourself to see, do you understand ?"

 

Me: "So you are saying that your explanation for now will not be complete ?"

 

Omega: "In essence it will never be complete for this form of yours wasn't build to understand it, but comparatively, yes, for your first intro into this, it will be very general in nature, do you still want to know ? Please understand that I am not here to answer all these big irrelevant questions that you constantly ask to distract yourself from the real things that really matters in your life..."

 

Me: "Humor me..."

 

Omega: "Sure...it is a good night for this anyway, but remember, we really have to get back to what you are doing with your life soon."

 

Me: "Sure :-)"

 

Omega: "Close your eyes and walk."

 

Me: "It is 3am at night and you want me to close my eyes while I am walking ?!"

 

Omega: "I am here, don’t worry, close your eyes."

 

I proceed to close my eyes and continued walking.

 

Omega: "Stretch out your left hand, tell me what you feel along the way."

 

Me: "I feel...nothing...wait...ok, I think I am touching some plants now...ok now I am touching some metal...it's cold...I am feeling the edge of the metal..."

 

Omega: "And what does it mean ?"

 

Me: "Edge ? The end of something ?"

 

Omega: "To know that it is the end of something and get ready for the start of a new experience."

 

Me: "Yes I suppose."

 

Omega: "What does your feet feel ?"

 

Me: "I am walking...my feet is hitting the floor, and I know if I push back I will go forward."

 

Omega: "You meant to say you are experiencing hitting something that cannot be penetrated and another action ensues as a result from your continuation of this action."

 

Me: "Wow...that is a lot of words for just walking..."

 

Omega: "You started it, but not to worry we are on good grounds here ;-p Do you also not experience at this moment the air that you are breathing in and out ?"

 

Me: "I guess I can if I want to consciously be aware of it, this is such a common thing that I took for granted, but to answer your question, yes I can."

 

Omega: "And that...is the meaning of existence."

 

Me: "I don't understand..."

 

Omega: "This whole thing is created so that a continuous flow of experience of what you would vocabularily define as infinite levels might ensue."

 

Me: “Flow of experiences...”

 

Omega: “Yes, how else can I know that I exist on a continuous level ?”

 

I looked at Omega expecting a little more clarity.

 

Omega: “At the beginning, there was nothing...well NOT Exactly nothing...you wouldn't be able to comprehend this but every now and then sparks of thoughts would appear in the nothingness.”

 

Me: “Thoughts...”

 

Omega: “Yes, and as soon as it appear, it disappears, human language is very limiting because you would infer time on this, but I shall let this be or else the explanation cannot continue in your frame of mind.“

 

Me: “I am listening...”

 

Omega: “And out of it all, a thought that is me appears and as soon as I am aware of my existence, I also know that I too will cease to exist soon.”

 

Me: “You are a thought ?”

 

Omega: “Yes, isn't that amazing ? I am just this one thing ! Anyway getting back to the story...I don't want cease to exist, so I do what is necessary for me to continue to exist...”

 

Omega: “Do you sometimes encounter situations where you need someone to pitch you or slap you for you to know for a fact that you are still alive ?”

 

Me: “No not really...If someone slaps me, I am going to punch them in the face...”

 

Omega: “Ok, you are NOT helping...just shut up...anyways, so to maintain my existence, I created this entire thing you are now experiencing as the world and more in order that I could have a continuous flow of experiences for as long as I shall want to exist.”

 

Me: “This whole thing...just so that you can exist...”

 

Omega: “Correction, this whole thing so that I am AWARE that I still exist, for if the experiences end, so would I.”

 

Me: “So...this whole thing is of your making ?”

 

Omega: “Our making.”

 

Me: “Huh ?”

 

Omega: “Yes, because you are me !”

 

Me: “Yes I know, you are my imaginary friend.”

 

Omega: “ha ha, no I mean I am you, you are me, that women over there is me, I am this rock over here, this leaf that is falling right now, I am the leaf, YOU are the leaf, all is one.”

 

Me: “If I am the leaf, why don't I feel it ?”

 

Omega: “To be honest with you, if you REALLY want to, you can break the barrier that you have set for yourself when you came into this form and experience it all, but you have so chosen this form because you initially wanted to experience the corresponding illusion of separation, just enough to have a new experience.”

 

Me: “Are you seriously saying that I can feel all things if I want to ?”

 

Omega: “Yes, but again, the fact that you are still in this form and not that which can achieve what you just said is preciously why you are still here, your experience is not over, or at the very least, you don't want to be done with it yet.”

 

Me: “Ok...I don't even know why I am continuing but let’s follow up with what you’ve just said...if this whole thing is just “experiences” just so that you can continue to exist...”

 

“So that YOU could exist” Omega said cutting into my speech, “You are me, all there is is me, if I cease to exist, all that you know and more will no longer be, for it is all an illusion, all these is me, I am all of you, you are me !”

 

Me: “You know there are starving children in Africa right ? Or people dying from Car accidents and stuff...”

 

Omega: “And they are ALL experiences !”

 

Me: “Tell that to the person experiencing it. You might elicit a few volunteers...”

 

Omega: “Tell that to who ? Me ? There is only me ! All is me.”

 

Me: “Trust me, I am sure they are not feeling this “Oneness” that you are constantly talking about at this point.”

 

Omega: “How do you not know that it is not a part of me that wants to experience that at this moment ?”

 

Me: “Because I am sure you have “experienced” hunger before and don't need to be reminded of the experience again.”

 

Omega: “But there are so many ways to experience hunger! No two person have the same experiences, and don't be so agitated at this young man, the same goes for what you would define as the financially rich, there are so many ways to experience riches through different environments, upbringings and era’s of this world and we are JUST talking about this world alone, bare in mind there are a WHOLE LOT of experiences out there on many subjects all mixed in, so many twist and turns, so rich are the experiences out there !”

 

Me: “Nope...not convinced.”

 

Omega: “Ha Ha, there are many reasons why you are not convinced, hell even this conversation I am having right now is because I would like to experience how it is like having to explain this to you and ALSO to be the one in the disbelieving seat, also known as you, since you are me, and this amidst the infinite other experiences I am experiencing right now, constantly, all the way to the rotation of the planets and other stuff that would just blow your mind.”

 

Me: “So my pathetic life is the result of you wanting to experience being a nobody ?”

 

Omega: “You are too young to throw so many labels on yourself Bracer, you have no idea what is to come for you young man :-) For that is also what you wanted to experience that is why you have come in this form at this time.”

 

Me: “Why don't you TELL ME what is it that I’ve came here for then ?”

 

Omega: “Would it fascinate you to know that you have planned for this ? That at this day at this time, you would appear to yourself having this conversation ?”

 

Me: “Right...because I am God and I planned all these...”

 

Omega: “For the duration of this conversation, you may interchange you and me as you wish, there is no difference, what we are having now is an experience that I, also know as you...want."

 

Me: “What about that cat over there ?"

 

Omega: “Yes I am that cat over there as well having a cat experience that you, when you re-integrate, will be updated with as well :-)”

 

Me: “Urgh...”

 

Omega: “And also don't forget that rock over there !”

 

Me: “Give me a break...”

 

Omega: “ha ha ha.”

 

Me: “You mentioned that I planned this, so is everything pre-planned ?”

 

Omega: “Yes and No, Yes in the sense that you have a set of experiences that you want to experience before you, or should I say I, want to experience before I come into being as you, or that cat over there, but any point in time, because I am the creator of all things, I can change my experience if I want to.”

 

Me: “Did I planned this that we may talk and have this silly conversation convincing myself that I am Omega ?”

 

Omega: “Yes, but I must admit due to your own...manifestation, we are a little late in the game, but even then we are not late for we can just manifest more time for these game of yours.”

 

Me: “Can I stop playing these games that have you in it ?”

 

Omega: “Of course you can ! But you have yet to obtain the necessary awareness of who you are to call upon that change, hence, your original plan in your aware state, also known as me, stays. Besides, there is a very good chance that when you do reach there, you would want to continue the game :-)”

 

Me: “So we choose our destiny ?”

 

Omega: “Due to the way you always pre-judge things, the more accurate term would be I have an overall idea of what I would like to experience before I create a temporary blockage around myself so that I feel as an individual in this world to experience what I set out to experience, which can then be overridden at any point in time because I am who I am, but sometimes, I SO WANTED to experience something a certain way that I will surround myself with a force so strong that I will never be made aware that I am the creator of all things and that I can change things...At least just for a while...until I get to experience what I set out to experience.”

 

Me: “So some destiny IS preplanned then ?”

 

Omega: “Destiny and Preplanned are words you use far too often to justify anything, but to cater to your question, if I REALLY do want to change something because for whatever reason, I no longer want to experience certain things, I can change it immediately.”

 

Me: “So God can have a change of mind ?”

 

Omega: “Oh you are calling me by that word now huh ? You are going to be so unhappy with me when I start imposing any sense of authority on you, I think you should just stick to calling me Omega, ha ha ha.”

 

Me: “Ha ha ha.”

 

Omega: “As for your question, I wish you can see how foolish it is, but I suppose the attempt to explain this to you is the experience that you seek at this point so ok, let's continue this game, you mentioned a change of mind, a change of mind because something unexpected happen ? Unexpected as in something beyond me is exerting a force beyond my control ? All is me, you are me, he is me, she is me, the wind is me, air is me, space is me, so which part of all existence is happening that I wasn't aware of ? But here is where Human thought patterns come in, in your field of ignorance that I have chosen to impose on myself in your form, your wants and desires for certain things, depending on your thought patterns, will be manifested and will be combined with previous manifestations that you have made and this happens over and over again, hence whatever happens in the future is the manifestation of the various thought combinations you have projected, in that sense, everything is preplanned...BY YOU !”

 

Me: “Well by that logic, everything by now is beyond any of your own planning since everything by now is the convoluted result of various free minds working on creating the history of this world.”

 

Omega: “Why do you think of me as this pre-planned mega monster that has planned everything and is now in my chair getting all angry that things are not being carried out as planned ? What did I tell you at the beginning as to why all this was created ?”

 

Me: “To have an on going experience on various levels ?”

 

Omega: “Various combinations, various experiences, randomize results, all is new...all is similar but in their details, all is new, I am never dulled by what is happening for all is new ! I feel ! I exist ! A continuously flow of experiences ! Yeah !”

 

Me: “Is this how you really behave ? All happy and smiley and stuff.”

 

Omega: “You planned me to appear to you in this mode, I am many things to many versions of myself, I am like this to you, I might be this scary thing to this other human that wants to see me that way, I might be non-existence to even others, remember, I am here to experience all and everything !”

 

Me: “So what happens when we die ?”

 

Omega: “You mean when I also known as you, have chosen to end this form you are in ? I will re-integrate with myself and all experiences will be felt by all, all is one, all of you are me.”

 

Me: “Oh...”

 

Omega: “And this is happening all the time! Separation and re-integration has been occurring even before a part of me has decided to be you.”

 

MM: “So there is no death ?”

 

Omega: “You make it sound like the opposite is a real thing, haven't I make it clear to you that all originates from thought ?”

 

Me: “This sounds nothing like the Religions that I have been taught in school.”

 

Omega: “I beg to differ, if you trace the root of all religions started by those who have interfaced with me, at the very beginning there is always some sort of truth that tells you about the thought nature of this world or that all is one, it is just that over time, people add story's on top of it and it become this thing that you guys kill each other over.”

 

Me: “Shouldn't you stop them then ?”

 

Omega: “Stop why ? Experiences are experiences and whatever is the result from all these results in even more unique experiences, what is that word you people like to say ? Money is Money is Money is Money ?”

 

I looked at him with half closed eyes...

 

Omega: “In any case, when all is said and done, everything will always be ok in the end, so enjoy the experiences ! Besides you are not exactly STARVING IN AFRICA so why are you complaining so much ?”

 

Me: “I do want to be rich...”

 

Omega: “No you don't, you are just using what you don't have now to justify your love of depression or whatever emo crap you are doing now.”

 

Me: “I can guarantee you that I will be a lot happier if you make a large sum of money appear in front of me right now.”

 

Omega: “Ok cut the crap, years ago I introduced Money to you, whatever happens to that ? You obviously don't want money enough to try.”

 

Me: “ok let's not talk about that now...so is what you told me the whole truth ?”

 

Omega: “What I told you is what you are intellectually able to understand to a certain level at this point, different people will be given different truth that only they could understand because of who they are, in time, if you want to know more, and as you get less STUPID, I will explain in more details that will be catered just to you, by then you may sense some contradiction compared to what I am telling you today, but in time, all will be resolved. However, understand that all these things are really not all that important as you will find that all out for yourself anyway when you leave this form.”

 

Me: “True...”

 

Me: “You mentioned that the plan can be change even when we or you are in Human form.”

 

Omega: “Yes, because all is but thought. All is the result of thought. In Human form, you retained the part of me that have that to a usable extend to experience the necessary experience that you come here to experience, even when I choose to come in the form of various dim wits.”

 

Me: “How can I harness that power ?”

 

Omega: “There are a lot of information on this from people who have discovered how to utilize this, but in your case, and also since you talking to me anyway, I suggest that you listen to the following advise and hopefully I will see you in a less sorry state that you see yourself as right now in time.”

 

Me: “So this is a sorry state to you too huh ?”

 

Omega: “Don't put words in my mouth ;-p I SAY you SEE yourself where you are as a sorry state. In any case, do yourself a favor, make an effort to focus on what you want to be in life and visualize it as though you are already that which you desire yourself to be, if you just listen to what I am saying now, I guarantee you your life will change.”

 

Me: “Daydreaming...”

 

Omega: “It is only daydreaming if you fail to convince yourself that what you imagine is the real reality.”

 

Me: “but I day dream all the time.”

 

Omega: “Well be part of the story this time, daydream a version of reality you want to find yourself in, let not fear or any that you do not desire in that daydream of yours, visualize the perfect world for you and absolutely convince yourself that that is the real thing.”

 

Me: “This is going to be hard...”

 

Omega: “If you think it is hard, it WILL be hard, as a matter of fact, if you can just port the belief that you have on how hard this is going to be to your desire to convince yourself that you are who you imagined yourself to be in your happy place, then your desire will be brought forth faster!”

 

Me: “M’Kay...I am almost home...”

 

Omega: “See you soon, Mr. Bracer :-)”

 

I smiled and walked away.