This is a message directed at a dragon/ness known as Marsar/Keitra, depending on how close you are/were or what part of herself she allowed you to see. I’m doing this publicly because you’ve chosen to ignore and abandon me and others who cared and supported you. Because you decided to run away rather than admit fault. Rather than apologise you lied to our faces and ran straight into the arms of others that you could flirt your way into manipulating just like you did with me and others. You don’t get to silence me anymore. I held my tongue and trusted you for four years. Almost two as mates, and two after as supposed ‘closest friend and family in my entire life’ (your words, many, many times dear). You can block me, silence me, make sure that the consequences of your actions can’t follow you around, but I refuse to not be able to call you out now. Had I talked about some of the small abuses and manipulations and lies you were feeding me early on, had I spoken out, I would’ve found you out so much sooner, and saved myself two years of my life bailing you out financially, offering you a roof over your head, trying to lift you up and support your art and hobbies. All for it to have been for nothing.

You are a cheater, gaslighter, manipulator, liar, sexual user and abuser. You stole my love, my support, my gifts, and even my necklace design. You are an unrepentant coward who lied right up till the end to save yourself and left me and others to pick up the pieces. You say whatever you need to say to get what you want from people and then abandon them as soon as it gets difficult, even after they would give you so much support and care. It ultimately means nothing to you I suppose.

Unless you can show one iota of guilt, of actual change, I don't see you ever having a chance. You'll just abuse and use others like you did me, like you did others before. The fact you can't even apologise or face a single supposed close friend or family nowadays and choose to hide behind new accounts pretending we never existed, speaks volumes about you. Someone who actually wanted to change would’ve at least apologised to any of us. Instead you either pretended nothing happened to others who knew, or you downplayed and lied. Or you just blocked them.

I hope one day you can change, Keitra. In the meantime I hope everyone knows what you did, all those awful horrendous things and how much you hurt us all. Cause I'm going to make sure of it. You had a chance to show remorse and growth and instead you continue to be a monster.

I have all the evidence saved of what you did, the lies, the cheating behind my back, using my battle with depression and anxiety in order to cheat behind my back and convince others (often mutual friends) that I was actually ok with it, just not to speak to me about it to avoid attacking myself since I was “so self hating and broken”. Instances of double speak, instances of saying whatever you thought you needed in order to placate me and others. Literally feeding lies to me and others. In one situation getting me and a friend to fight in order to help cover up your cheating with them, so we wouldn’t talk and find out what you’d been saying to us both. You made them your secret lover and broodmate, you promised them secret art and hatchlings. And as soon as you decided to dump me and put the blame on my depression for ‘falling out of love with me’ you ghosted them. I suppose they were only actually all those amazing things you called them as long as it was cheating and borderline cucking. Once you were single it must’ve been boring.

Even towards the very end of our friendship, when I started finding out awful things and lies, you continued to just feed me tiny scraps of the truth until I’d stop questioning, even when you saw me break down and beg you for the truth. You’d ply a hundred promises and assurances on me and either immediately break them or simply lie in the first place. You’d watch me slowly go insane from the gaslighting, questioning if I was just wrong and was a bad person for thinking these things of you. You’d watch me sit alone on my hatchday and cry, while you’d secretly be off flirting. Assuring me that you were also just as lonely and isolated, that you also had no real friends or anywhere to be socially. You watched me suffer, knowing it would take the smallest effort on your part, my supposed family, to help. But not doing so because it would expose you as a manipulating liar.

It was ok to decide early on in our relationship when we started dating that I wasn’t enough or right for you. That was your decision. But deciding to also keep me and feed me bullshit to keep me in place while also trying to get whatever you wanted behind my back? That was a monstrous move. Dumping me and pretending you still cared and loved me as a friend, that if only I went to therapy for my depression and self worth issues that it would’ve worked out, when it was the fact you were cheating multiple times and breaking the rules of our relationship? Even more monstrous. You put all that on me and for years I despised myself thinking if only I was stronger and better. But it wouldn’t have mattered, since I was never going to be enough for you.
Letting me continue to care for you like family, continue to support you, asking me to fucking bail you out on fees and shipping more than a few times. Letting me buy you gifts and presents. Feeding me bullshit to continue trusting and relying on you telling me that it would get better if I did. Knowing the entire time you were building up an entire alter ego and social circle, purposefully erasing my entire existence so I’d never find out or cross paths, going as far as to pretend you were alone and doing nothing with yourself. Making me feel awful and wanting to help you when you already had it made, when you were flirting and getting gifts, making gifts, whoring around for attention, making pets left and right and even stealing my own necklace design that I poured my heart and soul into, tweaking it just a bit to use to claim pets, and for yourself.
That is truly monstrous. Irredeemable. You watched me over the course of a year slowly find out, beg you for the truth. Give you second, third, fourth and fifth final chances to be honest with me. Instead you chose to continue to suck up anything I could give you, and only showing your true colours once you got cornered and had nowhere to run for a moment. You admitted to the smallest things I had proof of and denied any other accusations I had. You chose to leave me like an idiot who would fall for anything, and say that for both our sakes we should stop talking.
Your last words to me were lies and denials, no apologies beyond the few things I could prove.

Well. I found it out. As much as I could. Months of slowly uncovering every awful deceit, gaslight, abuse, coercion. I had anxiety attacks, I had emotional breakdowns, I spent many many, many nights crying to myself in bed until I’d pass out in the early hours of the morning and then drag myself to work. You could’ve saved me a lot of that by just telling me the truth but you decided for your own ease to just ignore me and move on. You could’ve given me closure and a chance to move on to something better when you decided to break up with me, but instead you gave me blame and self hatred to chew on for years. At any point you could’ve come clean and let me be free but instead you fed me false hope, promises of being together one day, of being a family. You fed me false love. You fed me so many lies.
The fact that you chose to just keep me in that state, to do so many awful things and pretend to be someone I loved and cared about. The fact that you decided you didn’t even owe me an explanation or an apology. The fact that you still are around on your new alt FA accounts and alt Discord account, pretending nothing even happened. All those just show you are an unrepentant monster who will use up others pretending to be their best friend, closest ally. Only to abandon them when it’s no longer beneficial for yourself and move on to new opportunities without remorse. You’ve left me and a slew of others broken and alone. You pretended to be our friend. And left without even a single word.

I hope you have a wonderful life filled with people just like yourself, I hope you one day know the pain and torment you’ve caused me and others. I hope you enjoy being a vapid, uncaring troll who will sell out their friends in order to garner favour with others. Yes I’m referring to how you’d backtalk more than a few of your still friends in order to appear to take the side of someone you were pretending to support. I’m sure those friends of yours wouldn’t appreciate knowing some of the bad things you’d say about them in order to cover your own tail and get on someone’s good side.

This is getting rather long so I’m going to call it here. I have pages of things you did I could write down and expose, hundreds of screenshots. But for now I’m just glad to get to call you out and let as many people know as possible who you are: a cheat, a manipulator, an abuser; uncaring, unchanging, without remorse. Maybe one day that will change, and when you finally grow a spine and decide to grow up from being a jobless leech who flirts around for gifts and attention, I’ll be here waiting for an apology for everything you did. That’s a pretty big if though since you show no signs of caring unless you have direct consequences for your actions. On behalf of myself, your best friend since high school, your other so called best friend from Australia, some of your American friends, your lil bro from Germany, and the blue ness you manipulated into cheating on me with, go fuck yourself.