About my past:

 

I am finally sitting down and manning up like I should have done in the past, and take accountability for the things I did, and explain things I did not due and how they happend. 

 

I will be talking about a few things before talking about the people in this document: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1ebSY2JYCsdwH4-HCExW_c8lRbKtL3qeC/view

 

First I will talk about the Kotaku article. In this article, there was an interview with "me" where It has a childish response with an end that advertised my youtube. This happened right when I deleted all of my youtibe videos. Someone had hacked into several of my accounts (Twitter, Gmail, and my nintendo account) and replied as if they were me. When this happend, I had screenshots showing the different IP addresses, as well as their phone number. I had shared this around, but dont have it anymore. If I had deleted my youtube videos, why would I advertise my youtube? 

 

Second, yes, I admit I had responded and handled everything poorly when all this first came out. Deleting all my tweets, running away, and coming back trying to fit back in all on the same time. 

 

Starting off on the document in order, 

 

1) The first one took place when I was 17 and Nebula hearts was 14. At the time I had no idea her age, and that a 14 year old and 17 year old being friends is weird. We were part of a pokemon community which varies in age range, and she would constantly talk in Skype calls with older people. I know we should never assume people ages. With her, it is being spread and shown in the document that I threatened to OD if she did not send inappropriate images. This is not true. I had a girlfriend at the time, and she broke up with me. She told me she didn't actually love me, was using me for free gifts, and saw me just as a replacement for her ex. This had me spiral, as seen in those messages. I thought Nebula was a close friend, so I confided in her about my depression, suicidal thoughts, and my ex. This was not a good idea as I should have talked to a professional. I ended up attempting to take my life, just to wake up anyway. No, depression is not an excuse of any kind, and I should have thought better on the person I was talking to. Using suicide as a way to guilt trip someone is pathetic and disgusting. There are also people spreading around that I did this to multiple girls, and that is not true. 

 

2) Tokiib explains that I was too touchy when we spent a day together, and that it was inappropriate to try to pay for her food and infront of her boyfriend. I saw no visual queue that she was uncomfortable, as she hugged me when we first met up, and I gave her a hug goodbye. If I knew this made her uncomfortable I would have not. And yes, I tried to pay for out meal. At the time, she had offered to pay for my Uber home. I told her "as a thank you I can pay for the food", plus I was always taught growing up to pay for meals when you can. Afterwords, they instead insited I take a bus back to my college. I agreed and went back. Not once was any negative thing spoken to me about hanging out. I am sorry for making you uncomfortable.

 

 

3) Meganymphia was also a friend through the pokemon community. We texted and called a lot over the span of a year or two. She is a hypersexual person, which didn't bother me as if it's something she liked and no one was hurt, that's fine. Sometimes she would send images on Snapchat or make noises in calls on the phone. I never Instigated anything as at the time I was not interested much in thst sort of stuff. The only times depression was brought up was when we would check on each others mental states. This also taught me that I seem to make people uncomfortable unintentionally. I am very sorry for doing so, especially to someone I considered a good friend. 

 

4) This one i did do, and ignored their rejections and their messages that they were not interested. I pestered them a lot, because I thought they were a good friend and always wanted to talk to them as much as I could. This was wrong and I'm deeply sorry. It was wrong and inappropriate of me. 

 

5) Crazy gears. She was a friend from college I met through a mutual friend. The friend was an ex boyfriend of hers and still liked her. He would occasionally make weird comments but we ignored it. Those are what she is referring to. Her and I got really close, went on dates, etc. During this time however, I had developed romantic feelings for someone else. I was an awful person and, after spending two days together, told her straight up I liked someone else and not her. In my mind, I was letting her know gently and did so to not lead her on or give any false ideas. This was oh so very wrong, especially after we spent a few days together. I also never apologized and that was awful of me. I tried reaching out to her on Facebook to finally apologize but never heard back. If you read this. I am truly, deeply sorry. I messed up, trested you poorly, and kind of just pushed you to the side. 

 

I cannot speak on the anonymous ones, as they obviously have no name to them. There is not one time.i can recall any of these things happen. I dont just buy things for people all the time, so I usually remember who I buy things for. 

 

 

I am sorry for hiding who I was all this time. I was a wimp. I didn't wanna take accountability for anything so I ran and hid. I have made so many new friends after becoming Ghost and I'm sorry for lying to you all. 

 

I have learned. I have grown. I have changed. I know at this point my word doesn't mean anything to a lot of you, especially with no physical evidence, as i have no messages that stretch back far, and some of this was in a call or in person. None of this or anything like it has happened in the past several years, and will not happen in the future. 

 

 

I do also want to make an appology that might not matter to most, but I want to apologize to the PMDT. I am sorry for stealing and leaking your codes. I was mad I got rejected from the team, saw them on pastebin, and saved them. I got mad too that these were not put out in the public and shared them. I was a selfish, dumb child that wanted all the attention. 

 

Thank you for reading, and God bless 

 

-GhostsSoup