BELOVED OSHO,

DURING YOUR BEAUTIFUL TALKS I FIND MYSELF LISTENING TO YOU WITH A SHARP MIND
AND AN OPEN HEART AT THE SAME TIME. I FEEL AN UNDERSTANDING COMING UP OF
WHAT YOU ARE SAYING, BUT IN THE NEXT MOMENT – WHEN ANOTHER QUESTION IS
ASKED – I NOTICE THAT MY MIND, WHICH HAD BEEN SO SHARP BEFORE, FORGETS ALL
THAT YOU HAVE JUST SAID. HOWEVER A FEELING AS IF I HAVE BEEN TOUCHED VERY
DEEPLY REMAINS WITH ME. I WONDER ABOUT THIS.
WOULD YOU PLEASE HELP ME TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IS HAPPENING?

There is no need to remember what I say because I am not giving you a doctrine that you have to
remember. What is important is that the feeling left in your heart that you were touched remains with
you. That is significant – not what I say.

I say so many things just to give you that feeling that your heart is touched. That’s why I always say
my talking is totally different from anybody else’s in the whole history of man. They were talking to
say something; I am talking to do something. They were talking to impart knowledge; I am talking to
transform your heart.

So there is no need to remember; otherwise you will go crazy. If you remember all these things that
I am saying to you, you will certainly go crazy. Can’t you see me? I have gone crazy!
And I don’t remember anything of what I have said to you before. I have never read any of my books,
and it is beautiful because then I am always spontaneous. And it is beautiful because I can easily
say anything that comes in the moment, without bothering whether it is contradicting something else
that I have said some years before. It cannot contradict because that was also as spontaneous as
this is; the spontaneity of both links them together. Howsoever contradictory they may seem, they
have come from the same spontaneous source.

Don’t try to remember. It is easy to remember Jesus because there is not much – four gospels
and all are the same report from four different journalists. There is not much difference. You just
memorize one gospel and that’s it; you know the whole of Jesus. It is so easy.

With me it is very difficult. Christian missionaries have told me that I should write at least a small
book like the Christian catechism as an introduction ”because you have so many books – what
should one read, from where should one begin? So just a small book to introduce yourself...”
I said, ”That is impossible. You can start from anywhere – any book is the introduction for the
remaining three hundred and ninety-nine. But catechism... that is impossible. I cannot put in a few
words a few principles so that you can remember them like a parrot.”

But it is very difficult for outsiders to understand that my talking is being used in a totally different
way:

It is less a communication and more a communion.
It is less knowledge and more love.
It is less words and more silence.

So if you can remain thrilled, don’t be bothered with the words. They are not of any use. Their work
is done. They have stirred your heart, they have made you aflame: they are no longer needed. If you
try to remember my words... I have spoken so many millions of words that it is almost impossible
for you to remember them all, and the purpose was never to give you a doctrine, a philosophy, but a
vision... and a vision is a totally different thing. If it opens your heart, if it cleanses your intelligence,
that is more than can be asked.

Unfortunate are those who remember the words and nothing else happens to them. They will
become parrots, scholars, pundits – but they will never become sannyasins.
To be a sannyasin is something unique. The heart is aflame with a longing for the unknown, with
a love for the whole, with a song that cannot be brought into words. A sannyasin is himself the
holy scriptures – not because he remembers the words but because he is transformed through the
words. He is reborn.
 

Osho.

Path of the Mystic.

Ch. 44. Question 3