COCAINE+ABEL returns after their highly successful sophomore album in an attempt to prove that the third time really is the charm. ‘DESERVE THE DESERTION’ tackles loneliness, isolation, and abandoned relationships in both a pre and post apocalyptic world. Drawing strong influences from the likes of Soundgarden, Nine Inch Nails and Rob Zombie, the quartet have managed to craft a sound that is both beautifully raw and somehow mysteriously industrial at the same time. Album opener ‘Wonderland’ welcomes you to their madness while the finishing song ‘Catacombs’ quite fittingly lays the project to rest. If there’s one thing this third album encapsulates, it’s that not even the end of the world can stop this band and their effort to raise the bar.
1... WONDERLAND
Why do I feel so fucking ugly
Cry every time some small thing bugs me
Will these voices ever stop ringing
Before I hear the angels singing
Calm my mind, it’s racing again
Moving faster than I can grab a pen
Poetry soothes me, sets me free
But some nights these rhymes won’t let me be
I’m a slave to my own creativity
Punished for my years of naivety
Insomniac, maniac
Will I ever get my peaceful nights back
Quit berating me
Melatonin sedating me
Falling, falling, into my dreams
Where nothing’s ever as it seems
Welcome to my fucking wonderland
Fly with me like Peter Pan
Take my hand, it’ll be alright
Together we’ll make it through this night
Welcome to my fucking wonderland
Welcome!
To my!
Wonder!
Laaaaaaand!
Welcome!
To my!
Wonder!
Laaaaaaand!
Floating heads I’ve seen before
Ones I’ve hurt, their hearts left sore
Was I, am I, still mad as a hatter
Did it, does it, even fucking matter
What I did then can’t be undone
I can only pray they had their fun
Hookah, mist, I’ve got the lightest buzz
Vision blurred, hazy sight, can’t see through the fuzz
How did I get here
Breathing it out before it’s in my system
Thankful to the days in the dark
For granting me wisdom
Welcome to my fucking wonderland
Fly with me like Peter Pan
Take my hand, it’ll be alright
Together we’ll make it through this night
Welcome to my fucking wonderland
Welcome!
To my!
Wonder!
Laaaaaaand!
Welcome!
To my!
Wonder!
Laaaaaaand!
I don’t know what I’m doing here anymore
I know I can’t stay here anymore
I don’t know what I’m doing here anymore
I want to quit but I keep coming back for more
Welcome to my fucking wonderland
Fly with me like Peter Pan
Take my hand, it’ll be alright
Together we’ll make it through this night
Welcome to my fucking wonderland
Welcome!
To my!
Wonder!
Laaaaaaand!
Welcome!
To my!
Wonder!
Laaaaaaand!
Welcome...
To my...
Wonder...
Land...
Land...
Laaaaaaaand!
2... ALICE, WON’T YOU DREAM
Stumbling around blinded by the sunlight
After crawling out of the rabbit hole
Shadows cast out by the rays
You’ve left behind your blades
Skin burnt from hell’s blaze
She finds solace in the summer shade
Bruises on her neck from where
The noose got pulled too tight
After they promised it was just for show
Now she’s tainted, now she knows
No good can come
From a smoke show
You’re a fucking dream
Life ain’t as it seems
Alice won’t you be
My queen supreme
Help me break these chains
Come clean these stains
Alice won’t you be
My queen supreme
Alice won’t you dreeeeeeeam!?
Escaping nightmares like a bloody scream
Here you stand, pristine and clean
Battled armies, dethroned men
The queen I wish to defend
And on who I can depend
I can rely
I won’t defy
Sword to my shoulder
Let me be your knight
Fuck the armor
You alone shine bright
You’re a fucking dream
Life ain’t as it seems
Alice won’t you be
My queen supreme
Help me break these chains
Come clean these stains
Alice won’t you be
My queen supreme
Alice won’t you dreeeeeeeam!?
Wonderland taught you fear
There’s none of that here
Come with me out of the shadows
This world has its own mad hatters
Take that looking glass from the queen
Smash it now, make sure it shatters
You’re a fucking dream
Life ain’t as it seems
Alice won’t you be
My queen supreme
Help me break these chains
Come clean these stains
Alice won’t you be
My queen supreme
Alice won’t you dreeeeeeeam!?
3... SANCTUARY
She calms my nerves and she soothes my soul
Helped me get back the little boy I lost
Takes me inside when I need a place for the night
Holds me real tight when my mind’s not alright
Opens the bottle on what I’ve kept inside
Buckles down and holds on for the ride
She steers me straight when I veer off course
Makes me regret the things I did
When I never even used to show remorse
She!
Is my sanctuary
She’s no ordinary
No ordinary lady
She!
Is my safe space
From my dark headspace
I’m a fucking headcase!
I’m a fucking headcase!
She’s my sanctuary...
She’s a star in her own right
The star in her own night
Paints a sky so picture perfect
Makes me feel like living’s worth it
Hold me till the dawn breaks
Bring me back the sun
Shelter me when the earth quakes
I’m tired of living on the run
Outlaws need homes too
And I’m starting to think
My home is you
She!
Is my sanctuary
She’s no ordinary
No ordinary lady
She!
Is my safe space
From my dark headspace
I’m a fucking headcase!
I’m a fucking headcase!
She’s my sanctuary...
She sees the angel that buried the devil in me
Wants to break ground on a love for eternity
Been in my mind and came out without a scratch
Took my grenade and blew open the hatch
Freed me from self inflicted isolation
Probes my soul with zero violation
When I’m here
The devil don’t scare me
Can’t bring me to hell
Inside the sanctuary
She!
Is my sanctuary
She’s no ordinary
No ordinary lady
She!
Is my safe space
From my dark headspace
I’m a fucking headcase!
I’m a fucking headcase!
She’s my sanctuary...
My sanctuary...
4... MISTER WRIGHT
Come have a seat beside me
Hold my hand as this cabin rocks
Turbulence is familiar to us
Almost landed us in an ambulance once
You from a blow and me from a hit
And it was hard as fuck to quit
Had to learn to fly alone
To feel safe as a passenger again
Stay grounded with me
Get pounded by me
Stay grounded with me
You’re gonna get pounded by me
Get under the blankets
We’re going nowhere tonight
When I’m done with you
You’ll see the stars
You’ll see the light
Get under the blankets
We’re going nowhere tonight
When I’m done with you
You’ll see the stars
You’ll see the light
Come take flight
Let me be your Mr. Wright
We’re airborne now
Because love is in the air
Can you feel it coming in the air
That cloud of smoke is our breath in the air
Stay seated, they say
As I fasten you in
To the sky we will rise now
Watching down on the little town
That put us together
Just to tear us apart
And scattered our pieces
Over its dirty beaches
Get under the blankets
We’re going nowhere tonight
When I’m done with you
You’ll see the stars
You’ll see the light
Get under the blankets
We’re going nowhere tonight
When I’m done with you
You’ll see the stars
You’ll see the light
Come take flight
Let me be your Mr. Wright
Inside this cockpit
We’ll stay high forever
I’ve got the wheel now
And I’ll take you wherever
Inside this cockpit
We’ll stay high forever
I’ve got the wheel now
And I’ll take you wherever
Get under the blankets
We’re going nowhere tonight
When I’m done with you
You’ll see the stars
You’ll see the light
Get under the blankets
We’re going nowhere tonight
When I’m done with you
You’ll see the stars
You’ll see the light
Come take flight
Let me be your Mr. Wright
5... ABOVE THE CLOUDS
I’m here
Up in the sky
And there’s no way
I’m coming down
It’s not a pill
Or a powder
That’s making me feel
Like I’ve got this much power
It’s the pulse
In my veins
Pure life
A happy brain
I survived psychosis
And still came out sane
Clouded heart
Clouded head
No storm clouds in sight
This is the nature of things
Clouded mind
Clouded eyes
No storm clouds in sight
This is the nature of things
Above the clouds
On cloud nine
Above the clouds
And I’m doing just fine
Above the clouds
I’m here
In the mist
And there’s no way
I’ll dry my skin
It feels good
On my body
A coolness that means
Mother Nature still wants me
Forget all those faces
I won’t let them haunt me
I’ve done bad shit
All for the drugs that I loved
But I turned around
And threw them out
So I could rise above
No more needles to feel
Like I need to be loved
Clouded heart
Clouded head
No storm clouds in sight
This is the nature of things
Clouded mind
Clouded eyes
No storm clouds in sight
This is the nature of things
Above the clouds
On cloud nine
Above the clouds
And I’m doing just fine
Above the clouds
I was always worthy of my love
I forgot and abused the land I walked
Took the poison into my body
All because I’d forgotten how to talk
About my demons
And monsters
That roamed in the dark
But now I see the sun
Embrace its warmth
I’m finally home
Clouded heart
Clouded head
No storm clouds in sight
This is the nature of things
Clouded mind
Clouded eyes
No storm clouds in sight
This is the nature of things
Above the clouds
On cloud nine
Above the clouds
And I’m doing just fine
Above the clouds
6... THE WAGON
Wheels are turning faster these days
Praying my legs can keep up
Find myself on my knees
A lot more some nights
Than I’d like to admit to anyone
I refuse to give up
Or give in to exhaustion
Somehow, someway, I gotta stay up
If I fall today, face first in the mud
I’ll be back, chin up, ready to fight
Been on this bumpy ride
My whole goddamn life
Shaken up, tossed around
Fed by a bloody knife
But I won’t fall behind
I’ll see you soon
With burns on my side
By a heated spoon
Don’t let me fall behind
Keep me hooked and dragging
So long as I don’t lose sight
Of this trusted wagon
Pile us on like living corpses
This wooden red hearse
Delivers us from our curses
We’ve beaten ourselves up
But what hurts the worst is
Losing the light when we close our eyes
Succumbing to darkness
Buying into the lies
Can’t trust ourselves alone with our thoughts
Because we’re destined to decay
Alone forever we’ll rot
Been on this bumpy ride
My whole goddamn life
Shaken up, tossed around
Fed by a bloody knife
But I won’t fall behind
I’ll see you soon
With burns on my side
By a heated spoon
Don’t let me fall behind
Keep me hooked and dragging
So long as I don’t lose sight
Of this trusted wagon
And it’s just spinning
Spinning
Spinning away
Down on my knees
Hope I remember
How to pray
While it’s just spinning
Spinning
Spinning away
The wagon’s in the distance
Don’t remember how to pray
Been on this bumpy ride
My whole goddamn life
Shaken up, tossed around
Fed by a bloody knife
But I won’t fall behind
I’ll see you soon
With burns on my side
By a heated spoon
Don’t let me fall behind
Keep me hooked and dragging
So long as I don’t lose sight
Of this trusted wagon
7... FROM MY KNEES
Break the clock
And set me free
Don’t keep me here
Under this shaded tree
I need the heat
The sun provides
On your bed
My body thrives
I’m ready for different
I’m ready for new
Choke me out
‘Till I turn blue
Fuck me up from inside
I said fuck up my insiiiiiides!
Cuz I’ve been busting ass all day
Miiiine.
You look like you need ass today
Miiiiiine!
Bring out the chains
If you’re feeling like a freak
If you’ve got skeletons
Let me have a peek
Give me what I need
Won’t walk for a week
If that’s the way
You wanna play
Then tie me up
To you I’ll pray
From my knees!
From my
From my
Knees! Knees!
Put my head under your foot
Right where I belong
I’ll worship you, worship you
Like a church song
Want you to hear me breathe
See me seethe
Cry out for more
From underneath
Can’t think for myself
When you’re breathing my air
So why breathe at all
Suffocate me if you care
I’m yours and I’m naked
I’m yours and I’m bare
Bring out the chains
If you’re feeling like a freak
If you’ve got skeletons
Let me have a peek
Give me what I need
Won’t walk for a week
If that’s the way
You wanna play
Then tie me up
To you I’ll pray
From my knees!
From my
From my
Knees! Knees!
Boxes are for skeletons
And I’m out of the closet
Unearth yours, show me the bones
Turn out the lights
I’ll let you set the tone
I’ll let you set the pace
If it’s slow or it’s fast
Just please make it last
Till the moon and the sun
Are sharing one sky
Choke me, just soak me
So I’ll never be dry
Bring out the chains
If you’re feeling like a freak...
If you’ve got skeletons
Let me have a peek...
(A peek, a peek, a peek)
Bring out the chains
If you’re feeling like a freak
If you’ve got skeletons
Let me have a peek
Give me what I need
Won’t walk for a week
If that’s the way
You wanna play
Then tie me up
To you I’ll pray
From my knees!
From my
From my
Knees! Knees!
From my knees!
From my
From my
Knees! Knees!
8... FREDDY [feat. Spencer Charnas]
[Cody]
Scream for me
And I’ll scream for you
Scream for me and I’ll scream for...
Yoooooou!
Talk dirty to me
While I’m sound asleep
Talk down upon me
‘Till I start to weep
Threaten my life
With your fist to my head
I’m yours now
I’m yours, Fred
Freddy, Freddy
Drag your knives across my bed
Tear my sheets
Fuck up my head
Freddy, Freddy
Drag your knives across my skin
Tear my heart
Fuck me up within
Freddy, Freddy
[Spencer]
Hide in the shadows
As you study my fears
You’ve been there a while
I’ve sensed you for years
Lying so quietly
No one could see
The hell you were destined
To unleash upon me
Scream for me
And I’ll scream for you
Scream for me and I’ll scream for...
Yoooooou!
[Cody & Spencer]
Freddy, Freddy
Drag your knives across my bed
Tear my sheets
Fuck up my head
Freddy, Freddy
Drag your knives across my skin
Tear my heart
Fuck me up from within
Freddy, Freddy
[Cody]
1, 2
Heard he’s coming for you
[Spencer]
3, 4
You can’t run anymore
[Cody]
5, 6
Sinking you with bricks
[Spencer]
7, 8
He’s sealed your fate
[Cody]
9, 10
He’ll fuck you up again
Freddy, Freddy
Drag your knives across my bed
Tear my sheets
Fuck up my head
Freddy, Freddy
Drag your knives across my skin
Tear my heart
Fuck me up from within
Freddy, Freddy
Scream for me
And I’ll scream for you!
Scream for me
And I’ll scream for you!
Scream for me
And I’ll scream for you!
Scream for me and I’ll scream for...
You.
9... NIGHT TERRORS
Can you feel the blood bubbling
Right beneath the surface
Of your broken skin
As the red fist fades
To the back of your mind
Or is it real and
Choking you from behind
Sleep paralysis is onset
Your breath is hitched
And you’re so upset
Consciousness floating
Just above your head
If you could just reach it
This sleep wouldn’t be dead
Wake the fuck up!
You don’t wanna be dead!
Bruises form in your sleep
Demons alive, they start to creep
Into your bed, the one you share
With the one you love
But he does not care
Bruises form in your sleep
Demons alive, they start to creep
Into your bed, the one you share
With the one you love
But he does not care
Open your eyes and take a breath
This Night Terror’s near its end
When will I sleep
If my eyelids always display a nightmare
Screening them like horror films
Doing damage beyond a scare
Knives stab at my skin
Until they can draw blood
Enslaved again, Enslaved again
To the villain called my mind
Hands and will to live cuffed behind
Out of sight, now I can’t find
The courage to fight
Manifest a scream
A war cry. Fight!
Bruises form in your sleep
Demons alive, they start to creep
Into your bed, the one you share
With the one you love
But he does not care
Bruises form in your sleep
Demons alive, they start to creep
Into your bed, the one you share
With the one you love
But he does not care
Open your eyes and take a breath
This Night Terror’s near its end
I’m wasting away
Inside these prison sheets
Another day fades away
And I’m still here
Yeah, I’m still here
Mattress springs stab me
Absorbing them as I sink within
Wasting away
Inside these prison sheets
Bruises form in your sleep
Demons alive, they start to creep
Into your bed, the one you share
With the one you love
But he does not care
Bruises form in your sleep
Demons alive, they start to creep
Into your bed, the one you share
With the one you love
But he does not care
Open your eyes and take a breath
This Night Terror’s near its end
10... BODILY BREAK IN
Pretty party girl with her makeup on so right
Sorority girl, yeah your hair cascades down your back just right
And now it’s 2AM and the party’s winding down
Your friends, they can’t find you
And this stranger lays behind you
While you curl up numb and cold
To the world around you
This isn’t what you asked for
It’s not what you deserved
But that’s not what they’ll tell you
It’s now what you’ve heard
Maybe you should’ve tried to blend in a little more!
Kept your eyes up off the fucking floor!
Quit dressing like a fucking whore!
No wonder he thought you were trying to score!
In pants or a skirt or a dress or naked
You didn’t ask for this
Your body suffered a fucking break in
Pray for the day humanity awakens!
No more fucking body break ins!
Come on, world, it’s time to awaken!
How could you be so fucking stupid?!
To think a man like that was sent by Cupid
Fell for his pretty white lies
Now you’ve got demon claws probing between your thighs
While he’s tearing into you with his snakelike eyes
All for his own motherfucking rise
But this isn’t who you are
No this doesn’t define you
Don’t let him gaslight or malign you
You know your truth
And your truth is this
The guilt is to swallow
Let it eat him alive as he decays into the hollow
Maybe you should’ve tried to blend in a little more!
Kept your eyes up off the fucking floor!
Quit dressing like a fucking whore!
No wonder he thought you were trying to score!
In pants or a skirt or a dress or naked
You didn’t ask for this
Your body suffered a fucking break in
Pray for the day humanity awakens!
No more fucking body break ins!
Come on, world, it’s time to awaken!
Cover yourself up and cross the street when they pass
Lifetime of advice on how not to pay the price
For another human’s lack of respect
They use a body like it’s a fucking vice
And the world makes you think you’re to blame
As if you tempted them beyond restraint
They fire you when you file complaints
We see you!
We hear you!
We’ll shout and march there with you!
Maybe you should’ve tried to blend in a little more!
Kept your eyes up off the fucking floor!
Quit dressing like a fucking whore!
No wonder he thought you were trying to score!
In pants or a skirt or a dress or naked
You didn’t ask for this
Your body suffered a fucking break in
Pray for the day humanity awakens!
No more fucking body break ins!
Come on, world, it’s time to awaken!
11... THE EPIC OF THE ELEPHANT
See you standing there
In the center of the room
Waiting so patiently
For someone to address you
Marked up skin
Nicotine stained tusks
And those big sad eyes
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Get to the question
That they’re dying to ask
Big heart racing
As they stare in silence
Are they contemplating peace
Or waiting for someone to incite violence
Won’t someone please
Break this thin ice
Get this elephant wet
So he can breathe
Take back his life
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Maybe they’re just scared
That he’s the one that’s been
Sitting on their chests
Both day and night
Stealing their breaths
At the slightest inconveniences
Of life
Feels like their heart fell
On a knife
And now they can’t think
Without feeling that life
Is filled with too much strife
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
They hate that he’s used
Colored him white in powdered dust
And watched his value fall
They did this to him on purpose
They love to watch him fall
They shoot him up
Just to tear him down
Tabloids burn like any paper
History’s erased
What will they do now
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
If you want to paint him pink
Then pour another drink
Numb your mind today
So you can let it wander
What you’re seeing now
Is not what it’s meant to be
You wondered what it felt like
To be gawked at, to be me
Welcome to the circus
I’ll take your tickets please
Welcome to the circus
I’ll take your tickets please!
Welcome to the circus!
I’ll take your tickets pleeeeease!
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
Whaaaaat
What are they waiting for
12... WORTH IT
(Written By Trent White)
Was it all worth it?
All the pain I’m going through
Was it all worth it?
All the depression I’m going through
Was it all worth it?
All the people I’m gonna lose
Was it? Was it?
Was it all worth it?
All the pain I’m going through
Was it all worth it?
All the depression I’m going to through
Was it all worth it?
All the people I’m going to lose
You came into my life
And changed it for the better
You came into my life
And said you’ll never leave(never)
I gave you my heart
And you put it in the shredder
I gave you my time
And you stood me up
I gave up my loved ones for you
And you played me like a fool
Was it all worth it?
All the pain I’m going through
Was it all worth it?
All the depression I’m going through
Was it all worth it?
All the people I’m gonna lose
Was it? Was it?
Was it all worth it?
All the pain I’m going through
Was it all worth it?
All the depression I’m going to through
Was it all worth it?
All the people I’m going to lose
You made me think I was special
All to find out there was another
You made me think I was special
All to bury me six feet under with a shovel
I thought you loved me
All for it to be a fable
My soul was in your hand
But you never let me take you over your threshold
You made me think there was a chance
Only for it to sink like quicksand
It wasn’t worth it
All the pain I was going through
It wasn’t worth it
All the depression I was going through
It wasn’t worth it
All the people I’m gonna lose
It wasn’t. It wasn’t
It wasn’t worth it
All the pain I was going through
It wasn’t worth it
All the depression I was going to through
It wasn’t worth it
All the people I lost
It wasn’t
13... THE THORN
We’ve got this broken connection
With jagged edges
But here you are
Still hanging on
As I drag you on
What the hell
Is going on
There was no miscommunication
For your safety
For my sanity
We can never love again
But here you are
Still hanging on
As I drag you on
I have no idea
What the hell
Is going on
You’re the thorn!
You’re the thorn!
Stuck on the blade of my knife
Why can’t you let go
I’ll hurt you more than you know
You’re the thorn!
You’re the thorn!
Stuck in the barrel’a my gun
Taking each bullet
So you don’t have to run
You’re the thooooorn!
You’re the thooooorn!
Sit with your blinker on
At a paved over intersection
The crossroads are gone
This road’s a dead end
What more could you want
It doesn’t matter where you go
And I want you to keep going
But you can’t idle here
Man, I can’t take your unloading
Pack your shit in the trunk
And keep on driving
Pack your shit in the trunk
We’re all done and surviving
You’re the thorn!
You’re the thorn!
Stuck on the blade of my knife
Why can’t you let go
I’ll hurt you more than you know
You’re the thorn!
You’re the thorn!
Stuck in the barrel’a my gun
Taking each bullet
So you don’t have to run
You’re the thooooorn!
You’re the thooooorn!
Yooooou’ve!
Gotta get ooooout!
Of my skiiiiiiiiiin!
Yooooou’ve!
Gotta go nooooow!
I won’t let you iiiiiiiin!
I won’t let you iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin!
You’re the thorn!
You’re the thorn!
Stuck on the blade of my knife
Why can’t you let go
I’ll hurt you more than you know
You’re the thorn!
You’re the thorn!
Stuck in the barrel’a my gun
Taking each bullet
So you don’t have to run
You’re the thooooorn!
You’re the thooooorn!
14... I DO
Do you remember my hand around your throat
Because I do
I do
Do you remember your tears running down your face
Just to get caught at the base of my fist
Because I do
I do
Do you remember the hole in the hallway wall
Forged out of your head
Because I do
I do
Never think I don’t remember you
Because I do
I do
And don’t think that I don’t love you
Because I do
I do
I’m haunted by the ghosts
Of villain me and victim you
And the worst of things
I can’t undo
Because of this
We can never say “I do”
And the worst of things
I can’t undo
Because of this
We can never say “I do”
Do you remember the pills I chose over you
Because I do
I do
Do you remember the drain I tried to snake
Just to get my stash back into my veins
Because I do
I do
Do you remember the dead eyes set inside my head
Incapable of seeing your pain, so sad
Because I do
I do
Do you remember the dust on the table
Print of my nose streaked across the glass
Because I do
I do
I’m haunted by the ghosts
Of villain me and victim you
And the worst of things
I can’t undo
Because of this
We can never say “I do”
And the worst of things
I can’t undo
Because of this
We can never say “I do”
Do you remember who I was before the pills
Because I don’t
I don’t
Do you remember how I felt inside
When my head got higher than the sky
Because I don’t
I don’t
Do you remember the blurs of human figures
Standing over me every time I collapsed
Because I don’t
I don’t
Don’t come around trying to love a monster
Because I won’t
I won’t
I’m haunted by the ghosts
Of villain me and victim you
And the worst of things
I can’t undo
Because of this
We can never say “I do”
And the worst of things
I can’t undo
Because of this
We can never say “I do”
15... SWIM, BRICK & CHAIN
Grass over there is always green to you
Promise I’m not trying to be mean to you
When was the last time you started something
And you made sure it was actually seen through
To the end
I can’t pretend
That this shit’s alright
Could burn a million candles
And you’d still dodge the light
Offer a truce
And you’d still want to fight
I’m over your clouds
Come cue the wind
Here’s a string
So go fly a kite
Do what you must
To get your head right
Slaughter your demons
Just out of spite
Toss your baby food
It’s time to take a bite
Quit playing a damsel in the day
When you were born a knight
Easier said than done
I get it
But if you never try
You’ll never rise
Quit letting these beasts
Catch you by surprise
When they’re not even hiding
Easier said than done
I got it
But if you never fight
You’ll never win
Quit letting these monsters
Take you under
When the waters too shallow to drown
Swim, brick and chain, swim
Swim, brick and chain, swim
Swim, brick and chaaaain
Self reflection is good
But you’re wearing out this mirror
Give the man in there a break
He’s feeling overanalyzed
From the way his death
Has long been fantasized
Walk out the door
Turn the light out on him
Enjoy the sun for yourself
Take in the fresh air
Pretend for once you care
About anything other than yourself
Throw money at the bonds you’ve broken
But you won’t fix the cracks
Inside of your character
That keep you isolated
Blame those around you
When they get frustrated
Because the help they’ve offered
Has been in vain
I’ll say a prayer for you
You’re so goddamn insane
Easier said than done
I get it
But if you never try
You’ll never rise
Quit letting these beasts
Catch you by surprise
When they’re not even hiding
Easier said than done
I got it
But if you never fight
You’ll never win
Quit letting these monsters
Take you under
When the waters too shallow to drown
Swim, brick and chain, swim
Swim, brick and chain, swim
Swim, brick and chaaaain
Submerge yourself
It’s what you do best
Let the water wash over you
Baptized in the flames
Of your self imposed hell
Sentenced to life in the fire
Ring the devil’s bell
Scorched skin, you’re burning now
Iced heart is hurting now
Can you melt it
Can you set yourself free
Raise your voice
Someone will hear your plea
Easier said than done
I get it
But if you never try
You’ll never rise
Quit letting these beasts
Catch you by surprise
When they’re not even hiding
Easier said than done
I got it
But if you never fight
You’ll never win
Quit letting these monsters
Take you under
When the waters too shallow to drown
Swim, brick and chain, swim
Swim, brick and chain, swim
Swim, brick and chaaaain
16... ANGEL
Would you still call me Angel
If you saw my pitchfork
Tear through the heart
Of my last lover
Then use my horns
To tear their body apart
The man that’s an angel to you
Has been a devil to me
Someday soon I’ll forgive him
So long as he forgives me
Would you still call me Angel
If you saw what I did
To myself in the dark
When I thought no one could see
Started to kill myself slowly
Wanting to exist only in memory
The man that’s an angel to you
Has been a devil to me
Someday soon I’ll forgive him
So long as he forgives me
Would you still call me Angel
If you saw my soul
Stained black and blue and red
Bruised from the needle
Cold from my heart stopping
Stench of the blood from my poisoned veins
The man that’s an angel to you
Has been a devil to me
Someday soon I’ll forgive him
So long as he forgives me
Would you still call me Angel
If you saw my heart
Open to those in their greatest pain
Yet closed to those closest to me
To protect them from the man
That I used to be
The man that’s an angel to you
Has been a devil to me
Someday soon I’ll forgive him
So long as he forgives me
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The man that’s an angel to you
Has been a devil to me
Someday soon I’ll forgive him
So long as he forgives me
17... IDLE HANDS
For every person I’ve pointed the finger at
I’ve pointed it twice right back at myself
Nails to the face or in my skin
Scraping and scratching, trying to get in
Bore a hole in me
Infection spreading
Because I used the ticking hand
Of that old grandfather clock
To tear at my flesh
Only to bash my head in with a rock
That I stole from a castle in the sand
I’d kill for this
Swallow a pill
Liquor give my liver a kiss
I haven’t yet had my fill
Please tie up my idle hands
Keep them the fuck away from me
Don’t let them touch me
Stain me red
Or hold me down
To this fucking bed
Please tie up my idle hands
Please tie up my idle haaaaaands!
Can’t pick a new vice up
I gave that shit up
Wrap my wrists in ropes and chains
So I can’t blow out my fucking brains
In every way you could think
Flooding the kitchen sink
Because I like the mess
And the sparks of the toaster
Once I toss it inside
Splashing over me, a current, I’m fried
I’d kill for this
Swallow a pill
Liquor give my liver a kiss
I haven’t yet had my fill
Please tie up my idle hands
Keep them the fuck away from me
Don’t let them touch me
Stain me red
Or hold me down
To this fucking bed
Please tie up my idle hands
Please tie up my idle haaaaaands!
Call me a slave
Make me your prisoner
Just don’t let me roam free
When my dark mind takes over
Lock me inside
A box or a cell
Before I can drag myself
Back into hell
Back into heeeeeeeell!
I’d kill for this
Swallow a pill
Liquor give my liver a kiss
I haven’t yet had my fill
Please tie up my idle hands
Keep them the fuck away from me
Don’t let them touch me
Stain me red
Or hold me down
To this fucking bed
Please tie up my idle hands
Please tie up my idle haaaaaands!
18... CATACOMBS
I’m dead
Dead tired
And I’m sick
Sick and tired
Of this mess
This mess I’ve made
Of my life
My life is a lie
That I lead
I lead and I bleed
I bleed these sheep
That die with me
With me you’ll go
Into the catacombs
Bury me in the hall of skulls
Under the ground
In this wall of bones
Find me
When the sun goes down
That’s when all the dead still roam
The catacombs
Bury me in the hall of skulls
Under the ground
In this wall of bones
Find me
When the sun goes down
That’s when all the dead still roam
The catacombs
Two by two
We all go down
Go down into hell
Underground prison cell
One by one
We all will die
Will die inside
To hell we ride
Passageways long
Long tucked away
We venture in deeper
Day by day
Torch light, porch light
Both just the same
The same light dimmed
In the devil’s cave
Bury me in the hall of skulls
Under the ground
In this wall of bones
Find me
When the sun goes down
That’s when all the dead still roam
The catacombs
Bury me in the hall of skulls
Under the ground
In this wall of bones
Find me
When the sun goes down
That’s when all the dead still roam
The catacombs
Bury me in this hallowed ground
Miles below the city sounds
Find me where the dead don’t die
Underground city where the bones all lie
Bury me in the hall of skulls
Under the ground
In this wall of bones
Find me
When the sun goes down
That’s when all the dead still roam
The catacombs
Bury me in the hall of skulls
Under the ground
In this wall of bones
Find me
When the sun goes down
That’s when all the dead still roam
The catacombs
Bury me in this hallowed ground
Miles below the city sounds
Find me where the dead don’t die
Underground city where the bones all lie...