What is your take on this situation?

I live at home but it's just a place I live until I move out. My mom has raised me to be a "good little girl." I always feel that I have to live my life the way she wants it. I feel a lot of pressure because she impedes on me and has authority over (even though I am 19). (It's because she's older.) I always feel like I have to appease her, "kiss up" to her because of the way she raised me. However, my Dad is more supportive of me growing up and becoming independent. For me, pursuing dating has been nothing but a complete nightmare and her and I don't agree on things at all. I'd like to have a man in my life, she'd like me to have a boy. But the truth is that I just want someone to spend the night with (to have sec with) and I'm wanna have a man okay. I'm not interested in having a "boy" okay. And I still have to do everything behind my mom's back okay, even though I am of age. I'm not asking you to feel sorry for me. I just want to know your feedback. What you would do if you were me? I understand that everyone has their problems. I am looking for your opinions and ideas. How would you interpret this?